years of lies
years of 'i'm sorry'
i don't remember
i didn't mean it
what to believe?
who to believe?
how do I believe him today
after all the threats
the hateful words through the years
he said he's messed up
lord knows i know he's messed up
i want to think that he'll be there for her
that he'll take care of her
but i know its fleeting
i know in a few months it'll be gone
he'll get fucked up again
and threaten me
and abandon her
he's so 'charming' everyone says
he's so nice
and funny
but i know the truth
even though no one else cares
no one else knows what i know
i'll take it for what it is
cause it is what it is
and wait, just wait
for the other shoe to drop
because it will
and it'll drop hard
just like it always does
someday she'll learn for herself
and i'll be there
even if no one else cares
i'll be there
