Apparently an earthquake hit Virginia today. How did the world find out...facebook of course, its how we first find out about all our breaking news. Its funny to look back and read all the posts from my friends...From a 'today is boring' pre-quake posts to the canned posts copied from many others. Alledgedly the earthquake was cause by the founding fathers all rolling over in their graves due to some political bs or another. I find this one particularly amusing. I have no idea but I'm guessing that probably not a lot of the founding fathers are buried in DC. I'm sure they're scattered about. anyhoo....it still amused me.
As if there wasn't enough happening along the east coast, what with Hurricane Irene rolling ashore...now they have to deal with the beginnings of a zombie apocalypse?? poor east coast!!
Thank GOD The CDC is always prepared and has instituted Zombie Preparedness 101 a few months back.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Forward Prolpulsion
2011: Summer of fun is coming to a close, M has started Kindergarten. She is involved in Soccer and itching to start Daisy scouts. Life is a changing. I’m so thankful for all my wonderful friends who truly helped me make this a summer of fun. I had a blast doing what I wanted to do, having fun even trying new things. Kickball league, kayaking , multiple bike races. I’m proud of myself for getting out there and being true to me. I needed to remind myself that I need to come first. I need to make myself happy before I worry about others. The only person in this world you can make happy is yourself. I’m mastering that. Over this summer I’ve slowly lost a few people that I really thought would be lifelong great friends. But, in the scheme of things custody rules apply to friends as much as anything. So I’m learning to let go and move on. Unfortunately, moving forward often means leaving others behind. Bittersweet. You can’t live in the past and you cannot hang on to people who won’t try for you. While I want to hold on to friendships past, people who aren’t willing to make an effort will be left behind. I’m grateful for the memories and the lessons learned. The company, the fun times. But, as we grow and change in our lives there are certain people who aren’t willing to do the same. So as I move forward in this new chapter of my life, I will truly miss the people I am leaving behind. But, I cannot wait to see what is yet to come. Oh the places I’ll go and the people I’ll meet. Another adventure is beginning.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Tomorrow M starts her first day of Kindergarten. Wow. It shouldn’t be hard to believe, her being 5 and all, yet I feel myself saying the cliché, “Can you believe it??” I feel like I need this to be the end of an era. The start of a new beginning. I’ve spent the last 5 or so years trying to find myself trying to fit in and find my place in the world, I feel sometimes like I’ve just been lost in this world and forgotten who I am. But I think the truth of that matter is, I’m not done becoming who I am. We evolve, we change, we grow. I’ve been so focused on everyone else and trying to fit in somewhere that I didn’t learn to be me. This summer has been a summer of that, relearning to be myself whatever or whoever that will turn out to be. I figure I’m always going to be changing and growing and learning new things, loving new things.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Back in the Saddle
Tonight was Mission: Blog Recon. I’ve been spending a portion of the evening copy and pasting from my cobwebbed, neglected blog. Shame on me. I changed my email after I changed my name back to the ol’ maiden stand by and sadly have been forever locked out of my email. Figures after almost 2 years of a neglected blog perhaps I should start over. I feel so much better when I can bitch…err, uh, write about things. Its been 2 years so much, and so little at the same time have happened. Part of me wishes I had been documenting the whole time, but well, shit gets in the way. So here’s to a fresh start.
I’m not even going to attempt to recap but basically M and I are both about two years older and she’s at least 2 years wiser. Heh. I’ve grown quite a bit, mostly over the last 3-4 months though. I’ve discovered a lot about me that I didn’t know and why I do the things I do. I’ve changed for hopefully for the better and have realized that my main mission in life now is to mold and grow a child that doesn’t make the same mistakes I made. Sure all children will make mistakes but I want her to be able to feel comfortable with herself and know she has someone who cares and will listen and will help. I want her to know without a doubt that she is loved. I want her to be confident and go for whatever she wants. To make a better child, I must be a better person. Here’s to new beginnings.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
11 things your nurse thinks
Eleven Things Your Nurse Thinks (But Will Never Tell You)
by VivaLasViejas Staff
http://allnurses.com/members/21565/
Since I've presented my top 10 list of the things I love about nursing, it's time now for a visit to the darker side.
Here are some decidedly UN-lovely thoughts I've entertained from time to time:
1) If you yell "HELP!" one. more. time. without a really, really, REALLY good reason for it, I am going to come down there, shut the door, and give you a good dose of pillow therapy.
2) Sure, go ahead and sign out AMA. It's your choice. Just a reminder, though: if you leave, your insurance won't pay for your stay. Better yet, you won't be my responsibility anymore.........and believe me, I won't miss you.
3) I don't give a rodent's rump that you're related to the hospital administrator! The AMI patient down the hall who just went into V-tach needs me more than you need another blanket.
4) Thank you for asking me to check out your grandchildrens' photos, but I have a strict policy of never touching patients' wallets, and frankly, I don't have the time to breathe, let alone stand here looking at pictures of people I don't even know.
5) Yanno, when MY doctor prescribes water pills, I take them no matter how much I hate having to pee every 20 minutes. That's why I'm not in here for CHF, and you are.
6) No, "Mamma" is NOT going to get better, and if I were in her shoes, I'd haunt you for the rest of your days for keeping me 'alive' on a ventilator with my wrists tied down so I don't yank on the tubes coming out of my every orifice. She's had two major strokes and an MI, she's full of osteoporosis, and she has an advanced directive saying she didn't want any heroic measures if she ever got into a situation like this. What part of 'Do Not Resuscitate' don't you understand?
7) Please don't come to the ER for a sore throat that you've had for two weeks, demand refills on your soda pop every five minutes, and then complain loudly to your companion about the "lousy service" you're getting.
8) Yes, I have seen something like that before. In fact, I've seen things you can't even imagine that are a whole lot worse.
9) It is NOT my job to: answer your phone/find you some napkins/take out your trash/send out for pizza/pick up after your visitors/run a message to your friend down the hall/go to the kitchen to fetch a tray for your brother/cater to your every whim. (I've done all these things and more for my patients; it's just not what I was educated and trained for, and you need to know that.)
10) I apologize for my cynicism, but experience has taught me that multiplying the number of drinks/pills/hits you admit to having taken by three or more tends to give me a more accurate picture of what's really going on with you.
11) I'm actually a very kind, compassionate, caring individual, but some folks make me wonder if God made man NOT in His own image, but so that skunks wouldn't think they've been given a dirty deal.
Have a nice day...........
Your Nurse
by VivaLasViejas Staff
http://allnurses.com/members/21565/
Since I've presented my top 10 list of the things I love about nursing, it's time now for a visit to the darker side.
Here are some decidedly UN-lovely thoughts I've entertained from time to time:
1) If you yell "HELP!" one. more. time. without a really, really, REALLY good reason for it, I am going to come down there, shut the door, and give you a good dose of pillow therapy.
2) Sure, go ahead and sign out AMA. It's your choice. Just a reminder, though: if you leave, your insurance won't pay for your stay. Better yet, you won't be my responsibility anymore.........and believe me, I won't miss you.
3) I don't give a rodent's rump that you're related to the hospital administrator! The AMI patient down the hall who just went into V-tach needs me more than you need another blanket.
4) Thank you for asking me to check out your grandchildrens' photos, but I have a strict policy of never touching patients' wallets, and frankly, I don't have the time to breathe, let alone stand here looking at pictures of people I don't even know.
5) Yanno, when MY doctor prescribes water pills, I take them no matter how much I hate having to pee every 20 minutes. That's why I'm not in here for CHF, and you are.
6) No, "Mamma" is NOT going to get better, and if I were in her shoes, I'd haunt you for the rest of your days for keeping me 'alive' on a ventilator with my wrists tied down so I don't yank on the tubes coming out of my every orifice. She's had two major strokes and an MI, she's full of osteoporosis, and she has an advanced directive saying she didn't want any heroic measures if she ever got into a situation like this. What part of 'Do Not Resuscitate' don't you understand?
7) Please don't come to the ER for a sore throat that you've had for two weeks, demand refills on your soda pop every five minutes, and then complain loudly to your companion about the "lousy service" you're getting.
8) Yes, I have seen something like that before. In fact, I've seen things you can't even imagine that are a whole lot worse.
9) It is NOT my job to: answer your phone/find you some napkins/take out your trash/send out for pizza/pick up after your visitors/run a message to your friend down the hall/go to the kitchen to fetch a tray for your brother/cater to your every whim. (I've done all these things and more for my patients; it's just not what I was educated and trained for, and you need to know that.)
10) I apologize for my cynicism, but experience has taught me that multiplying the number of drinks/pills/hits you admit to having taken by three or more tends to give me a more accurate picture of what's really going on with you.
11) I'm actually a very kind, compassionate, caring individual, but some folks make me wonder if God made man NOT in His own image, but so that skunks wouldn't think they've been given a dirty deal.
Have a nice day...........
Your Nurse
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
karma's a bitch
Morgan's first day of pre-school was today. Everyone warned me its tougher on the parents. "No big deal", I thought to myself, she's gone to a mom's day out since she was two and I leave her everyday when I go to work. She'll be fine. I'll be fine.
Yea, not so much.
Today she also got a "big girl bed" My mom brought over a twin bed, as the little miss has outgrown her toddler bed.
Today was a really hard day.
I kinda lost it just a little bit after putting up the big girl bed, in the privacy of my own car as I drove to meet a friend for lunch. She's closing in on four. She's a big kid. My one and only child is not a baby anymore.
This only reminds me that my life is nothing like I though it should be right now. I feel alone, that I dont' really fit in anywhere. I don't identify with my married friends, I don't fit in with my single friends. I'm just stuck in the middle, stuck just watching the years pass by. Without a promise. Without a purpose. Without direction.
Over two years ago, I changed my direction. But I've been lost ever since, I've been treading water trying to stay afloat but I'm lost and I'm alone. I know, no matter how hard it is, I know I'm better off now. But, I know that life isn't always butterlies, rainbows and puppy dogs; but I used to think that maybe someday I'd get my happy ending just like everyone else. But,not everybody gets a happy ending.
Yea, not so much.
Today she also got a "big girl bed" My mom brought over a twin bed, as the little miss has outgrown her toddler bed.
Today was a really hard day.
I kinda lost it just a little bit after putting up the big girl bed, in the privacy of my own car as I drove to meet a friend for lunch. She's closing in on four. She's a big kid. My one and only child is not a baby anymore.
This only reminds me that my life is nothing like I though it should be right now. I feel alone, that I dont' really fit in anywhere. I don't identify with my married friends, I don't fit in with my single friends. I'm just stuck in the middle, stuck just watching the years pass by. Without a promise. Without a purpose. Without direction.
Over two years ago, I changed my direction. But I've been lost ever since, I've been treading water trying to stay afloat but I'm lost and I'm alone. I know, no matter how hard it is, I know I'm better off now. But, I know that life isn't always butterlies, rainbows and puppy dogs; but I used to think that maybe someday I'd get my happy ending just like everyone else. But,not everybody gets a happy ending.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
for what its worth
years of lies
years of 'i'm sorry'
i don't remember
i didn't mean it
what to believe?
who to believe?
how do I believe him today
after all the threats
the hateful words through the years
he said he's messed up
lord knows i know he's messed up
i want to think that he'll be there for her
that he'll take care of her
but i know its fleeting
i know in a few months it'll be gone
he'll get fucked up again
and threaten me
and abandon her
he's so 'charming' everyone says
he's so nice
and funny
but i know the truth
even though no one else cares
no one else knows what i know
i'll take it for what it is
cause it is what it is
and wait, just wait
for the other shoe to drop
because it will
and it'll drop hard
just like it always does
someday she'll learn for herself
and i'll be there
even if no one else cares
i'll be there
years of 'i'm sorry'
i don't remember
i didn't mean it
what to believe?
who to believe?
how do I believe him today
after all the threats
the hateful words through the years
he said he's messed up
lord knows i know he's messed up
i want to think that he'll be there for her
that he'll take care of her
but i know its fleeting
i know in a few months it'll be gone
he'll get fucked up again
and threaten me
and abandon her
he's so 'charming' everyone says
he's so nice
and funny
but i know the truth
even though no one else cares
no one else knows what i know
i'll take it for what it is
cause it is what it is
and wait, just wait
for the other shoe to drop
because it will
and it'll drop hard
just like it always does
someday she'll learn for herself
and i'll be there
even if no one else cares
i'll be there
Saturday, July 25, 2009
awww shucks.....the misfit gets her props
One of the biggest compliments in the history of little sisters is when your much cooler, much wiser older sister acknowledges your contributions to society. Not to mention your coolness factor. And better yet, when her friends acknowledge all you are doing.
That makes me smile a little bit.
That makes me smile a little bit.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
life liberty and the pursuit of health
In response to the to a fella I know that thinks universal healthcare is a crock o' shit, his response was to my question to anyone against universal healthcare i'm curious if you 1. ever been without insurance 2. ever had to actually USE their insurance for a catastrophic illness or injury 3. even really know what their policy covers 4. thinks their life is worth more than their neighbors....just curious...
he thought it is just a competitive business to which another responded about how much is misunderstood....i liked my little rant here so I share with you :)
that’s part of my point, most people are very naive about the whole healthcare crisis to begin with, they think just because they have health insurance they are fine. Yea, if you are young, healthy and don't get in an accident you're fine I suppose. We are all one catastrophic, or in the case of some plans less than catastrophic illness or injury away from homelessness and bankruptcy due to health insurance coverage. We have politicians and high paid CEOs determining how healthcare dollars are spent, sorry but that’s pretty asinine. Would you want me fixing your car or defending you in a legal battle? No...Many administrators don't have a clue, they are just worried about the bottom line and making a profit. http://www.guaranteedhealthcare.org/tags/healthcare-denial-healthcare-protest-donna-smith-sicko-cnannoc Healthcare should not be a for profit business...hell it shouldn't be a 'business' at all.
Universal healthcare may actually have little to no detrimental effect of doctors at all, in fact their will benefit from the reduced administrative costs...for profit insurance companies spend an astronomical amount of time and money to make a profit...at the expense of LIVES. For example the average physician’s office in a single payer system spends 2 hours per week on administrative tasks, we here in the US just shy of 40 hours…now tell me that’s not wasteful. Health insurance plans cause physicians and hospitals nothing but headache.
One system that treats EVERYONE equally would actually help control costs. Isn’t what this country is supposed to be about? Equality…” that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness. “Healthcare needs to live within a budget, lines need to be drawn and algorithms need to be set. We need a government funded (which sorry to tell ya a lot of private insurance IS indeed government subsidized already) privately delivered healthcare. Before you even ask do I agree with Obama’s plan? NO. Do I believe that your life is just as valuble as mine and that my child should receive the same health care as yours? YES. http://hr676.org/
he thought it is just a competitive business to which another responded about how much is misunderstood....i liked my little rant here so I share with you :)
that’s part of my point, most people are very naive about the whole healthcare crisis to begin with, they think just because they have health insurance they are fine. Yea, if you are young, healthy and don't get in an accident you're fine I suppose. We are all one catastrophic, or in the case of some plans less than catastrophic illness or injury away from homelessness and bankruptcy due to health insurance coverage. We have politicians and high paid CEOs determining how healthcare dollars are spent, sorry but that’s pretty asinine. Would you want me fixing your car or defending you in a legal battle? No...Many administrators don't have a clue, they are just worried about the bottom line and making a profit. http://www.guaranteedhealthcare.org/tags/healthcare-denial-healthcare-protest-donna-smith-sicko-cnannoc Healthcare should not be a for profit business...hell it shouldn't be a 'business' at all.
Universal healthcare may actually have little to no detrimental effect of doctors at all, in fact their will benefit from the reduced administrative costs...for profit insurance companies spend an astronomical amount of time and money to make a profit...at the expense of LIVES. For example the average physician’s office in a single payer system spends 2 hours per week on administrative tasks, we here in the US just shy of 40 hours…now tell me that’s not wasteful. Health insurance plans cause physicians and hospitals nothing but headache.
One system that treats EVERYONE equally would actually help control costs. Isn’t what this country is supposed to be about? Equality…” that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness. “Healthcare needs to live within a budget, lines need to be drawn and algorithms need to be set. We need a government funded (which sorry to tell ya a lot of private insurance IS indeed government subsidized already) privately delivered healthcare. Before you even ask do I agree with Obama’s plan? NO. Do I believe that your life is just as valuble as mine and that my child should receive the same health care as yours? YES. http://hr676.org/
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